"21 Years Old: I Have NO Friends" 2 years later. THE UPDATE VIDEO NO ONE ASKED FOR.

"21 Years Old: I Have NO Friends" 2 years later. THE UPDATE VIDEO NO ONE ASKED FOR.

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i've been trying to record this darn darn darn darn video for way too long i'm not used to looking at a camera uh so i'm just leaking awkwardness so i am i'm done doing takes this will be the take and you're just gonna have to put up with my weirdness and awkwardness because that's i'm weird and awkward i really wanted to
00:30
record an update video for you know the video obviously it's my most watched video it completely exploded and i know it sounds really cheesy to say my life turned upside down but it actually did flip upside down when that video exploded a lot of you have been asking what's happened it's been two years what's the update have i made friends what have i learned um what has changed what's happened to
01:02
me am i happier all of that and i will do my best to answer those questions so if you've been wondering that stuff and if you've seen that first video and you want the update here it is and i wore the same dress same dress two years later i felt like it was an appropriate thing to wear so i want to give some backstory to what happened that night uh the night that i recorded that video i had just started youtube that year and
01:32
i had about eight subscribers or maybe less and that night i actually don't remember extremely well i i just remember that it was in a time in my life when i was living in minneapolis and i was living with my boyfriend at the time but it was at the end of the relationship when the relationship was crumbling
02:03
and i remember that evening i wanted to go somewhere because i often want to go out and i asked him if he would come to a park with me and do something with me and he said no so i got dressed up and i went to the park alone and i was just people watching as usual and i still remember the very the intense amount of loneliness
02:34
that i felt and that was not an unfamiliar loneliness it was a loneliness that i was very familiar with that i have felt my entire life pretty much so i really don't know why that was the breaking point for me and why i decided to publicly record and post a video i think i was just in the swing of recording videos for my new brand new youtube channel and i knew for a fact that not
03:10
many people would see this video but i think part of my motivation was so that other people can feel like they're not alone and also yes it was definitely it was for sure a cry for help and just kind of i'm sick of this something needs to change so i recorded the video all in one take and zero planning and i posted it to my eight followers and for the next something like six months nothing happened with that video nothing
03:41
i remember the first comment i got was from my aunt and i was so embarrassed that my aunt saw it i was like oh no should i delete it so then nothing happened and i continued recording videos and nothing really happened with my channel i can't remember how many subscribers i had but maybe well actually i remember i celebrated 100 subscribers before it took off before this video took off so i got about 100 subscribers and then
04:12
suddenly in july of 2020 july of 2020 last year with june maybe something started happening with my channel i don't even remember that excitement but i just remember uh i just started noticing that i started gaining a bunch of views and this was before my channel was even monetized and i had no idea what's going on but it was very exciting to me okay so that is the back story so if you're
04:45
new here and you have been wondering why my channel has 117 000 subs because of the quality of my content which i'm very aware is not quality well that's the reason it's because this one video exploded for me and i got all of my following from that and i've been extremely fortunate and grateful that that following has stayed with me and my channel has continued to
05:16
grow which i'm very happy about so that's the back story and now i want to tell you what happened after it exploded so the explosion never really stopped it still continued and people were contacting me on all of my social media i was getting so many messages overwhelming everybody messaging literally thousands and thousands of messages on facebook
05:49
and my instagram and i just yeah definitely had no idea what to do i actually thought and tried to respond to all of those messages for a while and that you can't do it i got hundreds a day for a while and i'm very very grateful that all of you reached out and i mean obviously all the comments on the youtube video i'm just beyond overwhelmed by it
06:20
so here's what happened after i was 21 and it's hard to sum up two years of my life in a quick video but the summary is that years 21 and 22 were definitely the darkest years of my life for so many reasons and i actually go over that in one of my other videos that goes over a lot of the things that happened to me or that the decisions that i made that were bad so after the video
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nothing changed in 2019 2020 i was 100 alone i actually was more alone than i'd ever been it didn't it didn't get better after the video it got worse much much worse because i was going through the breakup got hit by a car lost my ability to walk in my health got super super super depressed or more depressed and i was very very alone
07:25
but there's an upside and that is all because i made a decision i made the decision to move in 2020 august of 2020 i decided to move to california and that was a good decision i knew that that's what i needed to do i needed that change i needed to progress i needed to move forward in life and moving to california was just that um
07:57
so i found a place to live on craigslist and i made the 30-day trek down it was 30 hours it was crazy through the desert and in my totaled car i drove my totaled saturn the beginning of all of the positive changes happened with that decision to move and also most importantly was the people that i found on craigslist or should i say the people who found me because i made an ad and they answered it
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and they were i can't be i couldn't have been luckier when i got there i met my roommate the girl that i was going to share a room with and her name is savannah and she was a is a hardcore extrovert very loud and very talkative and i love it i love her um i'm obviously very quiet and it definitely took a very long time for us to actually connect probably a good five
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months of living in the same room together before we actually connected and before we became friends so it was actually on our trip to oregon that i'll link here i'm just referencing all these videos i guess but they are coming up in conversation we took a trip to oregon a crazy adventurous trip with savannah and her two friends at the time they were kind of her friends because i didn't know them very well but that trip changed everything because
09:30
i got introduced to her friends and i got introduced or i i got to know her better so though that friend group that you've been seeing in a couple of my videos they're not people that i found they are actually savannah's friends so what happened was savannah just invited me to hang out with her friend group over and over and over and i just hung out with them we actually went and this happened in
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um like february of 2021 this is when i met all of those people and we just hung out a lot then very slowly extremely slowly over those five months i got to know each individual and some of them much more than others and when you are in a group of people especially people that you don't choose you get along with some of them better than others they're on different you know levels of closeness i just want
10:36
to clarify because i don't want you guys to think that i have five friends because that makes you feel bad because many of the people that watched my first video related to that because they felt alone and i just want to say that it's not like i've jumped over the fence and now i'm happier than ever with five friends and i'm lucky and you're not that's kind of what i'm saying i just want to present like the reality
11:10
nothing is more important than presenting reality and not a fake representation of my life okay i hope that is clear but that being said i couldn't be more grateful they are good people they're all really amazing good people and i'm very lucky to have met them i'm going to make another video very soon talking about all of the challenges and lessons that i learned about making
11:43
friends and there are a lot i've already made my list like my notes and i have a lot of things to share and they're going to be very helpful so stay tuned i think it'll be my next video a lot of you always ask me they're like well you can't actually be shy or awkward or socially anxious if you do youtube because you're talking to thousands of people i'm not talking to thousands of people i'm sitting in my room alone and i'm
12:16
looking at a camera and i promise you it is so difficult to look at a camera maintain eye contact with the camera lens just like this robot eye like i can't tell you how much i struggle and i have literally spent the last 40 minutes trying to record an intro for today's video oh it sounds so awful saying today's video
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i just noticed that when youtubers film in this way they have to lift their arms way up or else people won't see their let me actually let me do let me just kick it down a little there better i think it's better okay so and you're wondering why such piece of crap videos on a piece of crap such trash quality videos
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have made me just okay if you're new here you

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