Healing of Sexual Abuses (Part-1) - Divine Feminine Sangha

Healing of Sexual Abuses (Part-1) - Divine Feminine Sangha

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hello everyone can you hear me can anyone just type in if you can hear me clearly okay perfect yeah okay great so uh my dear friends today we are going to talk about sexual abuse already we have worked on physical abuse and emotional abuse today we'll talk on sexual abuse and
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also we'll do a healing meditation and if possible today or maybe tomorrow depending on the time we will also do one exercise so with that i hope we can clearly heal whatever was going on in our minds knowingly unknowingly because some people remember or some people don't even remember what might have happened with their bodies so
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uh as i was just reading and i found some i don't know even what to say interesting or devastating facts but uh 84 percent of people in prisons when they were interviewed they told that more than 84 percent of the prisoners were sexually abused as children so when the when all these people are sexually abused as children knowingly or unknowingly consciousness
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subconsciously they carry these things into their adult life so that they will be abusing the other persons in their life or in any of the ways so it could be any sexual abuse that they may do again or even the physical abuse or they may just become criminals or they may become in whatever in different ways so finally they end up in prisons so that is the extreme cases and also
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uh mainly in jews and in some of the countries when a research has shown that millions of people every year are sexually abused and they told that only one in six cases are reported that means already only the reported cases are millions are there but there are so many millions which are not at all reported and mainly
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it happens because when as a child mostly the child doesn't know what exactly is happening because no one really talks about all the sex education as their children because it may even start from three years of age or four years of age or even less than packed so my dear friends my dear ladies i really want you all to be just in an observer mode do not get into
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uh that pt mode oh is it really and do not i really don't want you all to get into those energies so because this is a very sensitive topic and as women we may feel very bad when we are hearing these things or we may feel there may be so many emotions that may come up we may feel sad we may feel angry so many emotions that may come up so i really want you
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all to just be in that observer mode just these are all some facts that are happening outside in the world or something might have even happened to you but today we will just know those things and do not get attached to any of these things and just be aware of your emotions so actually i could already sense there are some energy differences in the group
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uh even though this is a short group now so what we'll do is um we will do just a five minute meditation before we talk further because i want you all to be really protected of all the energy surrounding this sexual abuse section assault that happens in the world so just close your eyes and breathe in
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peace and breathe out all the judgments all the sadness anger all the non-positive emotions just breathe out those emotions and visualize yourself surrounded by violet color or purple color energy ball you're completely safe and secure in this
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divine violet color energy ball and it is so strong that no non-positive emotion will enter inside you from outside at the same time whatever the emotions that are arising inside you from your past as i'm talking if any of your own
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memories come up that had happened to you or the things that you might have heard all the things that you might have read somewhere and whatever the emotions that arise from all these things the violet color divine light surrounding you it is like a magnet from inside so it will suck all this non-positive energies from you
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so it will not allow any non-positive emotions from outside at the same time whatever the emotions that are rising inside you it will completely suck those energies just be in that space and feel the energies of this divine violet light if you wish you can continue
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closing your eyes and being in this violet color energy ball and you can listen to the session or you may even open your eyes but still the energy ball is clearly surrounding you and you can listen to the session whichever you pay you are comfortable you can do that but you are completely safe and protected and whatever the emotions that are
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arising they all will be taken care and as we are talking about all these things all the unconditional love from our being is healing them healing us and healing all these situations and persons healing the whole of the female consciousness healing the whole of this
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sexual assault sexual abuse [Music] just be in that space and also i would recommend for any of you if there is a traumatic past and if you're suffering with post-traumatic stress disorder
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or any traumatic past which involved rape or other things which you are not able to cope up when you think about them or some things which are really serious and you really don't want to dig those memories and if you're suicidal or any mental health issues i would recommend you to work with a counselor or person to person with me
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instead of these online sessions because these online sessions will not be able to clearly see you you are the one who are going to deal with it so please i would recommend if there is any such story i would recommend you to really talk about it and take help instead of just going through these things online okay with that
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let us talk about few more things so the sexual assault assault or sexual abuse so here there may be different things it could be even the small things like and want to touch someone touching you without your permission or you're really feeling uncomfortable when they're touching you like when you're a child someone may be maybe touching your nipples
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or even your genitals or anything just you know like a baby they just are touching you without any intention but somewhere you're really feeling very uncomfortable you're pushing them away but they think that's a play and they do it again and again so even those things comes under we will not categorize what it will come under so it's just about healing them
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and one of the main thing is many of us may not remember what might have happened but intuitively we will know that something might have happened or the way we live the way we act it depends on what might have happened i'll just share some of the stories from my clients so one lady
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she was waiting for her child birth she was so happy she wanted a child she does she told me that it didn't really matter for her if it was a boy or a girl or a girl and she was happy with her partner she don't really remember any of the sexual abuse or anything that had happened but she gave birth to a girl baby and just after a few days and she was
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deeply resting because she delivered a baby and she didn't had any other support except for her husband who was taking care of her and he's also a very nice guy who takes the real good care of her but one day as she was resting in her bed her husband was taking care of the baby so suddenly she woke up and was checking what her husband was doing to the baby
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so she didn't directly go into the other room to check on her husband but she was just beeping in how he was behaving what he was doing to the baby and what he was talking so she did not trust her husband then she did not understand what exactly is happening to her so every day whoever comes to our house even her brother or her cousins or whoever boys or her dad or her father-in-law
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whoever comes she never felt comfortable giving her daughter to them and even slowly became so obsessed that she never felt comfortable even if the husband uh kissed her daughter so she was feeling so bad why is he kissing my daughter or something that is not that she couldn't explain she was feeling so bad about it but she couldn't get through that so as she was talking with me about about these things then when i asked her
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did anything happen to you in your childhood so she told me that she never re she don't really remembers anything but as i was doing some counselings and some regression on her we got to know that there was some sexual abuse that happened to her and it was still there in her cellular memories and that's where she couldn't trust so it was not there for so many years she was absolutely fine she was comfortable
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with other boys and she was comfortable with her husband and everything but when the child was born something triggered inside her and then she started not trusting any of the boys especially to give her girl she was so uncomfortable and it is making her life soul because it's her own father how can she not give her child to her father but always she doubted something will happen to her so when i started listening to many of
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these stories even years ago someone came to me and we were just talking we were just talking we were in a spiritual trip and everyone was talking all the ladies actually we were just college going girls and people were sharing this their stories and i was really shocked at that time to listen to such stories my dear friends i'm mainly telling these stories
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because if there is anything inside you i really want you to acknowledge and accept whatever has happened because the research has shown that many people it's not only ladies my dear friends remembered sexual abuse even happens to men also boys also so but many people they don't share they don't even it's not just about
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sharing even as a child if they go to their mother or their father or someone to share these things the other person will not believe them they'll just ignore them so all these things have have been happening according even to the according to the research and according to so many hundreds and millions of people have been interviewed why you didn't share or why you didn't tell to anyone and by that what happens is they are feeling more
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victimized already they feel victim for whatever has happened and if they went and shared with someone they did not really approve and they just ignored at that point even they shut down themselves even more so what happens is the the memory will not be clearly there because they completely try to shut down that memory so it will be hanging somewhere outside so it's when you
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that's the reason many of the many people they don't really remember what has happened because that is not what they expected that's a completely new experience they can't really store that memory so they'll try to ignore it so what but what happens it is still there somewhere for people for some people it will be still haunting in their dreams as if someone is chasing them or something is happening some monster
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is coming and trying to rape them or or different things some different kind of dreams or they may completely forget about it for years but after their marriage when that intimacy relationship starts they don't feel comfortable with their partner at all especially because all these years their body is so private to them but suddenly after marriage or once they start a relationship
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once they have a partner their body is no more private and that makes them feel so so uncomfortable they'll not be able to accept the partner because somewhere they don't accept their body parts because someone else abused them and they start rejecting their body parts and they feel so ashamed they feel so guilty they feel as a victim but
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remember my dear friends that's not your fault or that's not our fault so once you accept that it is not your fault once you accept whatever has happened has happened instead of rejecting it rejecting it and always saying that why how can he do that to me
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because my dear friends i heard stories directly or indirectly from from a person directly or from a person sharing their friend's story or even from internet people and also there's a research which shows people who are very close to them who are family or neighbors who are teachers who are doctors 98 of the times they sexually abuse
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the child so in that case is what happens is if they are so close the child trusted them completely friends mainly i'm talking as child but it could be even as an adult or as a teenager it might have happened to you or to someone that you know but as they completely trusted them come what happens is further on in their lives
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it will become difficult for them to trust anyone in their life so just because of this sexual assault or sexual abuse the whole of their life how they live depends on how they have taken this they don't trust people it can be even in office or even in the their partner or even their neighbors or whoever it may be somewhere that the trust is broken and as i mentioned
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so the intimacy issues may arise with their partner so many complications when they open up their body to their partner they feel so difficult and they'll be facing so many challenges one side their intellect and the society and the partner everyone says that your body is not private to you anymore you have to share it with your partner
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but somewhere there is so much of rejection though you want to share it but you don't feel comfortable because because of this all the sexual abuse it may have happened to you or even you might have heard from someone or even you might have seen someone and you have stored it in your mind so all these are very very important but once we accept whatever has happened
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it's about there is there are three steps in this one thing is about remembering and the second one is morning morning is like if you have to cry just cry or if you have to show your anger or if you have to show whatever the emotions releasing them out completely morning and then healing after this phase healing happens for some people after remembering automatically the healing may happen
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we can even skip that second phase but after this healing happens the whole of your life will be changed because there are so many stuck energies there even they say that when in hypnotherapy and few other places they say that when the sexual abuse happens or when some really traumatic event happens even for example when your mother died in your childhood or when your father died or someone spouse died or some really traumatic event happens
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some of your energy the life energy itself will be gone there you don't really want to remember that memory you live as if nothing has happened so even though the memory tries to come up you just push it because you don't want to face it because you don't even know how to face it so what happens is you just keep on rejecting it instead of facing it but it is still some
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there somewhere inside you and it it will still suck the energy from you but when this healing happens you will get back your life energy at the same time you will be able to heal all these memories even though that memory is there but the emotional charge will not be there when that healing happens and you will be able to see it in a completely different way so i want all of our group to be in that
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space it may take one day one hour or two days or few weeks of your time but i want you all to work on this clearly do not reject it my dear friends even though it might have happened to you or not even though if you might have heard some stories but really talk openly with your close friends
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or even in this group i'm going to create that space where you can share your stories or if you're not really comfortable you can share stories of your friends you can just say that okay there's one girl that i heard about and you can just share her story in that story you can add your story or you can just change it so the healing happens in whatever way you share we are all there here creating that's compassionate listening space
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where everyone offers can be healed together or even if you're not really comfortable sharing with your own name maybe i'll create a few advents where you can just share to them and they'll share it in the group as anonymous or even i was thinking i'll just take inputs from you all i was even thinking to create a nine-member group where only these nine members will share intimately all the stories
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and finally in the group you can share if you wish or even you can talk to me but my dear friend this is mainly mainly about that compassionate listening because the research has clearly shown that mainly when that child or when the teenager comes out of this victim stage and shares her story to even the mother or parent or caretaker they are not believing them
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and they're saying and even some people are saying don't tell to anyone because if a child has come to her mother and told that your brother i mean the uncle mother's brother uncle is doing this and this is touching my private parts or even touching me somewhere and i don't really feel comfortable in his the way he hug or if something like that is shared definitely the mother most of the times she will not accept it or she may just
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say oh it's okay it's just trying to hug you it's okay don't feel bad or just try to convince her daughter instead of trying to understand her emotions and actually looking into it and i even heard so many stories where their own fathers abusing their daughters uncles abusing their nieces and even recently i heard a couple of mothers
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abusing their sons so look how extreme it is it is all because of their old patterns their old energies and very recently someone they called me very recently after we started our group they called me and they were just talking to me so it seems she feels so uncomfortable she has a daughter of some
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six years of age or so so whenever her daughter even from her childhood of two years of age and three years of age she feels so uncomfortable to look at her private parts as a mother to look at her daughter's private parts or even to give her a bath touching there it seems she's so uncomfortable she'll be feeling as if okay am i doing something wrong is it okay to touch there or
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just imagine a mother mother's emotions so so even um a few months ago i was traveling in a train and a mother was changing the nappy of her daughter and her father was there next to her as she removed her diaper and she was just checking for the diaper from the bag the father was kissing the private parts of the baby girl and the mother was feeling so
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bad and she was almost yelling at him and he started yelling back what's there i'm just kissing her and she was telling why the hell are you kissing her private parts and her argument was happening it was in the train so i'm not here to judge anything if the father is right or the mother is right or what has happened it mainly depends on their emotions and what might have happened to them so in our day-to-day life when we
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observe how we react to such some things then we understand how we stored some story how we stored some emotions based on some story and how those things are reflecting in our day-to-day life my dear friends here i'm really talking very openly even sometimes i'm not feeling very comfortable talking these things but i've listened to hundreds of stories my dear friends
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and after listening to hundreds of stories personally from years i was feeling that okay can we do something about it first time when i heard some story i was thinking that oh your mother is very educated why don't you tell to your mother and she told that my mother i mean their father and mother are divorced and she told me that my mother i cannot tell to my mother
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because every other day some man comes to her home and sleeps with my mother so i was like completely i don't know what what the words that i should use here may be shocked or i don't even know so of course it is again if you think from a western perspective from others perspective in a western world it is common when the mother is divorced seeking partner partnership or seeking some love relationship
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some people may say it is okay but how it is impacting that child that is important how she stored it in her memory that is important my dear friends all of you as i'm telling these let those memories inside you come up whatever it may be whoever you have judged or if you have judged even yourself or even others so after moving to uk again i heard different stories
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of different women different cultured women then sometimes i i think if the same story if an indian woman shares a story if i take the same story to a western woman she may not have the same emotions right i hope you all will agree on this as you are all mostly from the other parts of the country i mean mostly born in india but to settle in us and uk and other parts of the country
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other parts of the world so then i started thinking so is it just about how we stored the fact is saying the story is same but how we store those emotions again i'm not telling that the western women are not feeling bad sad or anger at these things but nowadays a lot of women are speaking very very openly even there are some tedx talks and
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so many talks on these topics so that the women are healed so many workshops so many things i think going on around the world so many therapies have come up because uh the research has clearly shown in even the mental hospitals and whoever are having mental challenges even the therapists when uh when they give the questionnaire it seems 84 percent of the people or 85 or
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8 83 i don't really remember around 80s so those many number of people 85 percent of the people are again sexually abused whoever are coming for therapy and also people who take drugs again if their history is being checked even there more than 70 to 80 percent of the people are again sexually abused so again there was some research that has been clearly shown even in inner child work also they say they mention this
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that if parents are sexually abusing their child again mostly the child will become an adult and again he will start sexually abusing other people or even their own children so the research has shown this so if we don't talk about it if we just keep it for our sins and if we just hide it somewhere without really facing it it will keep on continuing for generations so i completely believe
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in healing and group healing and i completely believe in whatever the love that we are sharing it is healing us i wanted to do do it as an experiment and as you all are there in our group divine feminine sangha and the devi now there are about uh close to 400 people i guess so all these people so many of the ladies are coming back and saying that
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with these group energies after so many years we don't have any pains during menstruation we don't have any discomfort even recently a 40 year old lady she came back to me and she was so happy telling me that in i mean she was menstruated at the age of 11 or 13 and from then on every period she had pains the first day definitely she had to take rest but after so many years when she's
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joined this group very recently but she loved this concept of we calling her devi and addressing as a baby energy and all these things she really loved it and she accepted it completely and immediately within few days it's not even four or five days i think only last friday night we started this group and already yesterday or day before yesterday she called me and she was telling me this so see my dear friends when we are ready we can be healed in a moment
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so she clearly told that in all this is all these years this is the first time i'm not having any pain during my menstruation it seems she's happily working without taking rest and she's so happy i can clearly in even in her voice i can clearly say that she's so happy in the same way whatever that we are doing now the physical emotional and sexual abuse
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if we all are there in that love energy sending love to each other and healing our divine goddess devi if we can do that definitely without any doubt we can all heal together it's just about your acceptance yes my dear friends it's purely about your acceptance complete acceptance when we are ready we'll we will be healed and a lot of them say that
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mainly the therapists and counselors they all say that talking is healing so if anyone is here willing to talk we are all there to provide that space especially i promise that nothing will be discussed outside in our groups you can safely share your story and we are all there to provide that compassionate listening we will not advise you what to do what not to do
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we will not judge you will not show pity on you so don't expect that we will just send love and that just love is what is important only that love can heal anything and everything my dear friends so once we are healed there can be a lot of joy and aliveness from the sheer liberation because we'll feel liberated and also the emotional freedom will be
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coming for us after the healing as i already mentioned for some people they may not even remember what might have happened but they intuitively know that something might have happened they might have buried those memories somewhere something may trigger them for example as i am talking something may be triggering you and those memories may come up and sadly childhood abuse is far
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more common than most people would think but one thing i really wanted to tell you all is remember you may be very hurt you may be broken by whatever that has happened but it is not beyond repair we can repair it you can repair it and we are all there to help and support you i know i think the session is extending but i hope it is okay if anyone wants to leave also you can
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you can leave that's okay so it's all about unspoken shame even even things like for example for some one lady she she came actually it was not a direct story but an indirect story that i got to know from a friend so for one lady she was talking with my friend it seems her husband is having an external affair but she is completely dependent on him
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so even though she knew it she never ever discussed with her husband but at the same time she did not accept it so it is called as unspoken shame she was feeling so shameful about it and she couldn't even accept it at the same time she couldn't do anything about it all these shames sometimes in your families it might have happened in your old generations or even something that is happening now or something that you're
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seeing in your family other relationships in your family but you couldn't do anything unspoken shame and you're feeling very bad about it but somewhere you don't want to deal it deal with it i'm telling you my dear friends it's not just about going to them and talking to them and dealing them it's not about that first deal it in your mind how are you taking that story how are you storing it's just something that is happening outside and there are hundreds and millions of
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stories that are happening outside but when it comes to your own relationships own family you store it in a different way so release that emotional charge that is very very important because most of the times we are in this protective mechanisms we just hide those painful memories and we protect ourselves we just build some shell around us so that we will not even deal with that
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but i am asking you all to deal with whatever has happened or is happening at least in your minds my dear friends again i'm telling you i'm not invoking your problem sorry provoking you uh to go and deal with your family members and just uh fight with them and do things no first deal with it with your in your mind release them and you can clearly see that you will get a lot of
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energy because as i mentioned so much of life energy is released in those traumatic events and in such dramatic events we lose some power we lose innocence and also we lose how the way we live in our world so all these things happen because of whatever has happened in the past so let us all deal with that wow anyone wants to talk before we start
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out we'll just do a five to ten minute meditation today and i'll just give some guidance what we are going to do tomorrow before that if anyone wants to talk you can talk actually this is before before telling that this is live on youtube so that our members who have missed they can check it later that's the main purpose we are still i mean this is still on live on youtube only if you're comfortable talking you can talk or else
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we can discuss it in our group mom is there anyone else in the line talking or am i all right to go on yes yes please go on mom i just want to appreciate and i'm in awe of your efforts ma'am uh of putting in all your energy into healing uh such a lot of traumatic events i just want to say thank you i'm i mean i don't have i don't have words to uh thank you enough really really appreciate your efforts ma'am i i don't think
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people will even doubt that you could be sharing this with other people do you have even have to stress that it's con confidential so many times i don't i mean such a noble effort man really uh kudos to you thank you ma'am thank you thank you thank you so much yeah because mom create that safe environment uh sorry just a second because when we most of the women uh they are skeptical about sharing so when they stress again and again that it's okay to share then
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sometimes they may come out to share things yeah please go ahead um well sorry it's okay we are all there here please my dear divine feminine sangha just send her love energies and i request you all to not
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connect with her emotions but we are all here to support her and bring her out of those emotions in that space send her love energies it's okay it's okay you are a divine child just breathing breathing those peaceful energies healing energies and love energies and while you're exhaling exhale
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all those emotions out and my dear members whoever are here just send her that love it's okay you are fine and you're great you're so courageous to share this story and we are all there to support you you are completely filled with those
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violet color energies surrounded by this violent color analogies and it is sucking out all those non-positive emotions from you and at the same time you're receiving so much love from all of us and from the universal mother okay we will continue our meditation for
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few more minutes and we will send that love energies to each and every one in our group to our divine feminine goddess devi our divine goddess devi and send her love in our cheese and we are all connected to that universal mother and she is showering love energies on all of us
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just feel those energies inside you and it is deeply deeply healing each and every one of us and the divine gods they be feel the joy as we are healing feel the joy inside you as we are
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healing and forgive everyone and all the situations wholeheartedly because it is you who are hurted if you are still carrying and if you're still not forgiving the other person it will still haunt you so let us all forgive them who heartedly will forgive them and will change
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the whole energies around it as we heal our divine goddess heals and as our divine conceals the whole of this collective consciousness on the planet earth heals even if you feel like opening your hands and receiving the energies do that just let your body go in whatever ways
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it won't because sometimes we heal with moment and automatically it will come do not put any effort just two more minutes be in that space and say to yourself that i'm completely ready to be healed
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okay whenever you're ready you can release your hands and place them on your eyes for few seconds and slowly and gently open your eyes but if you still want to continue you must still continue how are you feeling madam if you're still in meditation that's okay if any healing process is happening that's okay you can share it in our
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group later but if you want to share anything now you can do that too also if anyone wants to talk anything share anything you can do so i'll just wait for few more seconds okay if no one has anything if you feel this energy is
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really helping you just continue your meditation and let that process continue because for some people when they are completely ready to be healed a deep healing happens in them so just be ready and accept that healing and for tomorrow everyone be ready for the meditation with pillows as
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keep a pillow near you and we'll do a process tomorrow in our meditation thank you all thank you and have a great day and if anyone has anything to share you can still share it in our group thank you all so much

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