Cocaine Addiction Treatment With ibogaine/Iboga : David's story

Cocaine Addiction Treatment With ibogaine/Iboga : David's story

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[Music] it was a cycle of drinking and cocaine abuse escaping from responsibilities depression sadness lack of will to live just lost no connection to anything no interest in anything I just lost my way just really lost my way and and and was just really heavily reliant on on the alcohol really just getting drunk and escaping and then I found you know that I couldn't escape
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that I couldn't stop when I wanted to stop and if this had been going on for a long time but but really over the last month it had really kind of reached a peak you know at its worst I had been going to a counselor for probably about a year we've done a number of different things we'd looked at a number of different theories we tried a number of different sort of behavioral techniques and I'd been on and off in a good place and a bad place for a while and then
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sunk back into this kind of you know pattern of depression and drinking my counselor suggests don't she she she had done it herself she recommended this as a as something not to be taken lightly as an extreme measure but something that that helped her ultimately that was the kind of the key turning point for her and maybe would be something that would help me and I spent a number of months looking at it probably three or four months you know researching and looking at it looking all the YouTube testimony testimonials and you know reading the
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various protocols and looking at the ayahuasca and then and then you know try to find sort of a number of treatment centers that were fairly close but they could offer kind of that you know the medical and security medical background as well with it the options in the UK are fairly limited it's obviously illegal in in the UK so you wouldn't have those sort of controls and that you know that the screening and everything behind that there so so I wanted to do it in a safe environment so I looked at a number of different centers and and this one really sang to
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me if this was the one that I ended up with [Music] well a mixture of feelings really I mean it was a really big build-up to this I'd sabotage he coming here a number of times and delayed tests and you know really made things difficult that I finally arrived here I don't know a mixture of fear I was glad that I'd been that I got here I knew after the first few hours that I'd arrived at the right place and the people were really welcoming and that's something in my
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heart told me I was in the right place so there were things that were aligning as well there was just too many things that were kind of you know too many coincidences you know the full moon on my birthday it being my birthday that week my 40th just lots of minor things that they all added up this culmination of actually this was meant to be I was meant to be here so I know I felt really glad to be here [Music] incredible absolutely incredible more that more than I hoped for it was it was
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profound it was intense it gave me a lot of the answers that I needed it showed me a lot of things that are probably already knew to be honest with you so but it spelled them out and sort of reaffirmed them I guess I just feel reassured it's I feel like the I can only explain it as the I was kind of living at the forefront of my head in this anxiety period and in in in my temple and I feel like the whole thing's been reset and I've been pushed to the back of my mind and I'm sitting further
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at the back of my mind kind of grounded and uncomfortable and and and confident again the day after that the adjustment period was the hottest for me the that the the very next day you know waking up and not being in control of my body and not being you know fully you know in control of my limbs and controlled my eyesight my mind wasn't sort of fully back together that bit was the scariest really and you know that they're the wondering whether is this permanent have I have I ruined
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myself a boy affected myself in such a way you know that this is unrecoverable what have I done to myself you know but you know I got a lot of reassurance from everyone around me and and and we did a lot of work on my body and my mind here with you know in a number of different ways and just over a period of two or three days I really became connected again with with myself but but probably more so than I ever was before I don't know the whole realization that you know we're all connected you know we're we're all part of the same universe you know that that whole you
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know thatthat sort of deep intrinsic feeling that you know works where we're all connected where you know on a spiritual level we're all made up of molecules and atoms we're all the same thing you know that that was a real revelation that you know you kind of know that you could that you don't really feel it it's not really shown to you that that whole the iboga really takes you there and really kind of illustrates that do you really make you feel that you're part of that you know they cosmos and part of it all I love them all I mean I got something
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different from each of em and there was something truly magical about some of them - there's some real intense energy in some of those treatments energy that I've not experienced before you know some of those are really eye-opening and then some of the other ones you know the equine therapy that was that was really enlightening you know I had a fear of a fear of horses before I came here and then to to guide a horse and to you know to make it run a wheel round a round in a circle and bond with it and learn how they feel and cope know it was you know the whole thing was just really enlightening the bodywork was
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particularly good that reconnecting and pointing your body and you know reaffirming all the different parts of your body back to yourself that was that was amazing - really confident I don't know where I'm gonna go I don't know how it's gonna pan out but I'm okay with that I feel confident in myself I feel like I'm empowered to make the right choices and there'll be choices you know based on my right when they go in my heart they may not always be the right
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choices but they'll be you know ones that I make and then my choice is to make and I'll be doing it with my head with me you know with my heart so I don't you know I don't feel any worry about the future I always did worry about the future finance and where it's going to go and I must set yourself up and can't scupper your pattern and all that's gone all that's gone I've got a number of friends actually that are in the same if not worse conditions than I was in and I'm considering sending them
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here and perhaps financing it for them I really recommend it it's a life changer it's it really does sort you out but you know I feel like everything's been reset reconnected I mean the only worry that I have is that you know that I won't I've got to continue to develop myself and I understand that you know that's I think I think it's saying is it's not a magic bullet it's not a magic tablet and I understand that so it's that you know it's really having to focus on myself and make sure that I continue on but I'd love to give other people the same kickstart and I
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would really recommend it to all these people and I will be doing the rounds when I go back I will be visiting these people and talking to them about it and suggesting it to them yeah highly recommended [Music]

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